by Army Of Me » Mon May 29, 2006 12:22 am
(admin sorry for all the edits - I did try not to do it but my brain wouldn't shut up after I hit the submit button)
I have a lot of residual anger left over from yesterday. Had a big argument on the phone with b/f late last night about porn too. Didn't sleep much.
But here goes - I read the article quickly but what I gathered was the usual advice I have seen given to women who dare to broach this subject. Could the writer even have been real? Or was the question made-up so that someone could write more pro-poison?
Just a note: I have had 2 very qualified (both female!) counsellors tell me in the past that basically, my issues with porn were really my problem.
The advice from the article seems to go something like this, and is the usual shit I've seen in other advice columns addressed to women about porn concerns:
Men are visual, get over it.
Men like to visualise when they masturbate over images they have imprinted in their brains from porn, get over it.
You, as a woman need to get over your insecurity that he may think that the other women he has seen in porn, indeed the ones in real life who emulate porn, are more attractive. And get over the fact that he has no such worries about you possibly thinking about other men - he doesn't have a problem, you do.
Get over the fact that the women in real life, who emulate the porn look, are doing it to either keep their man from straying, because all the other women are trying to compete with each other by looking like the porn images, or they are trying to get a man to look at them instead of you, so that they can feel validated and "hot". They feel powerful when your man sneaks away and tries to get them into bed, which may or may not happen - but this is their right and you cannot stop this so deal with it. This is all entirely normal and there is nothing you can do about it, don't even think about protesting about porn and it's effects as it's your problem. Porn is enlightening and helpful to relationships.
You, as a women need to get over the fact that he is thinking of these other women while you are having sex with him. Just get over it.
It is up to you to initiate a meaningful & caring conversation with your b/f about how much you love him and open a dialogue to help him share his sexual fantasies - you may not be providing him with what he wants. Yes, it is up to you to pander to him, and he should not have to worry about your feelings. It is you that needs to do all the worrying and caring. You must use constructive thinking about porn to address your insecurity and fears. It's your problem, so you must be sensitive and caring when broaching the subject.
Take an interest in his hobby. Maybe you could watch porn together and share his fantasies. This will create emotional intimacy. Then, if he ever does cheat on you again, whether in his head or in real life, you will be able to deal more effectively with the situation (which will be your fault because you didn't talk to him enough or share his porn enough).
Take a real interest in his hobby - listen to his needs. Lighten up - you could have fun together by assessing what he wants your body to look like. He could go with you when you have surgery to re-shape your body to look like that porn-standard image he loves so much! This sharing of your intense pain would be a wonderfully emotionally bonding experience, as would the wonderous joy as the scars slowly heal and you witness the eager anticipation of your b/f waiting to use your new body as a fuck-object! Porn is so healthy!
Have fun and experiment! You could consider having an open relationship where he would not feel bad for screwing other women, as it would then be a level playing field and he will have given permission for you to have sex with as many men as you like, thereby making it all equal. Or, you could force yourself to become bi-sexual and engage in 3somes (only with other women included, never another man)! If it helps, you could take drugs and drink a lot to help you lower your prudish, neurotic inhibitions and help him to fulfil his fantasies, and if you deal with this in the right way, his fantasies will also become yours. Porn will help you to achieve all this and more!
Porn does not make men unfaithful, it's the neurotic women they are involved with, who have a problem with porn, that makes them unfaithful. It's up to you to keep the relationship emotionally close and you must keep talking to him, even if you think he is emotionally warped from porn - that's not true - it's you that has the problem - get over it. Yes, if he starts excluding you in favor of porn, then you can worry. If by then it's too late, it's your fault for not being ok with porn. (Don't worry if you feel that this is going to ultimately and very likely happen anyway, you must try very hard to deal with this issue on his terms, and focus on the fact that it is you with the problem, not him, and when it finally does happen that he dumps/cheats on you, you can beat yourself up even more for having such a problem with insecurity and emotional neediness - deal with it.)
Just get over it.
Problem sorted.
"You can't start a fire without a spark" - B. Springsteen